J to the C's Journal

11:29am: John and Katie should move to Seattle.. Its the only way Charlie will ever truly live..
Also you need to put that dog down, its a real menace.

In other news, the record I just released on compact disc will be on vinyl in a few months!
Boom Sha ka la ka
Danny and Mike of long beach are very nice men.


Desi and I are getting pretty good at NBA Jam TE.

I'm still poor and I don't aim to change that.

Out of debt in the next six months? More tour! More music! and twins?!@$$$

7:56am: I can fully agreed with the statement that Pixar movies just keep getting better and better.
I hope I don't die before being able to see Toy Story 3...

10:30am: Tour was awesome. Probably the best tour I've been on!

9:47am: Not to go off on a tangent about anything, but I feel relatively active today.
I've been reading "for your own good" by alice miller and its been a extremely helpful book for me.
I've always felt pretty strong about human dignity and honesty to oneself. I've always felt strongly about the idea of treating people with some level of respect and decency.
This book just makes me think more deeply about what these ideas mean to me.
I just feel strongly about making people feel good. I'm human, I get angry and I mistreat people as much as anyone else, but I still feel its important to cherish life and really enjoy the people you care for.
I guess that is all I have to say today.

Honor, Integrity, Honesty

Its what I strive for more than anything.

11:11am: Tour is happening in about a month or so.
19 days I think?

Pretty excited as this is going to be an east coast affair.
ahh yeaaa

10:26am: Shows at Fusion Cafe this month.
July 19th: Jason Clackley, Dear John Letters, Polar Night Cap, Prohibition Heartthrob
(All these bands you can check out at greatplainsrecords.com)

July 23rd: Maladie (Tj, Mexico), Bokanovsky (France), Brainwashed

July 28th: Swallowed up (NY), The Helm, Livingston Seagull (ex Puma Run)

All great shows!


Address:909 4th ave Seattle, WA
(downtown YMCA)


7 pm 5 bucks

Get in to it.

1:15pm: List of possible goals
-Work for a law firm and pass the bar.
-Get a big ass sail boat.
-Write plays and essays.
-Tour the world. Put our records
-Date cute nice girls.
-Finish a whole record with John.
-Play bass for a power violence band.
-Get good at piano and drums.
-Become a parent one day and have just one kid that is really cool and all the other kids look up to this child of mine.
-Get a degree in something and never tell anyone about it.
-buy my grandfathers house in 20 years.
-Learn many different languages.


Seems pretty reasonable for the next 50 years.

3:41pm: “I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and that it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions”

12:45pm: Fool that I am...

11:53am: Life update
-Working for the shelter still. Stressful, but tight sometimes. Working with Jeff makes me forget the stress sometimes.

-Need to finish some more college though I need money as well. Maybe a second night job untill fall?

-Reading a lot, which is always a plus.

-I like where I live.

-Biking a lot and somehow maybe losing those winter pounds so I can look good for the beach when I'm playing volley ball with my shirt off.

-Personal family stuff not looking good, but really never is just as it was when I was 8 years old.

-Gavin has been staying with me which is cool because we just hang and laugh. Gavin also is basically my brother and my mom thinks of him as her third son so he got to come to mothers day this year.

-Love life? What can I say.. ball of confusion. Who knows what is every going to come from that haha.

-I miss John immensely, but I accept that we both have things we got to do. I'm happy everything looks good right now for him. He seemed real happy last night. And he will stay one of my closest friends, even though he kissed Natalie when we were 19.



Whats next? who knows? lone wolf rides at dawn....

10:51am: Man I am not feeling good today at all. Just common cold bullshit, but I don't think I should of went to work today. Oh well I'll live on to see another day.
So I've been writing a lot and making these songs that I'm super excited about. I've been writing this one song to kind of sort out what I've been feeling like for a while now. This feeling I can't shake that I made a really stupid mistake when I was younger. And ever since this, I've been able to brush it off when I don't have to be directly involved. I can't avoid it though so there it is. Maybe it will just past? who knows? Anyone else regret things? The one that got away and such. Bullshit like that?
I don't regret my life up to this point though. People I have shared things with and the life I've lived. Sometimes you can't shake certain feelings you have towards someone. Some people get second chances...right?

12:42pm: welp
Life update..
Still working at the shelter full time. It rules a lot. No complaints in the job department right now.
Played a show with Like Claws last night. Its been a crazy experience to play drums for a band. I love it because I know that I'm making some bounds towards playing better. I felt good about last nights show. Lots of solo stuff on the horizon. Justin, Franz and I's band is going to a lot of fun when it takes off.
Slowly working towards making that sail boat dream happen. I started off by reading a book to get to know the terms and such. Next step is figure out how to learn for free. Then buy a boat and sail away.
I love my friends as they are part of what keeps me going. In soo many different ways. Some are just fun and make me laugh. Some help me develop more understanding. Some are just so giving without asking that I feel I need to throw them a dinner.
There seems to be a lot buzz around saying people suck, but you know I do really love interacting with people.

Life is good right now..

that is all..

11:15pm: today was great! Went to the Science Fiction museum with ms. moon.
Hung out with Rachel on her break at work, then went to the king cobra and drank free beer Bri Bri.
Might sound like I'm name dropping haha.

Welp work starts again tomorrow. Life is not figured out yet and probably will continue to be a great mystery.

10:25am: Well lets see what has life been like lately..
Moved in to this new place downtown mid january. I live alone again, so its a wacky experience.
I have a 5 year plan to save a shit ton of money and buy a boat that I can sail around the world in.
I need to figure out how to get free lessons on how to sail. I need to stop eating out so much so I can save all my money.
I don't see a reason why I can't just eat at home as I'm a single man who knows how to cook pretty decent meals for myself.
Other than that, I'm at an okay place with things, but I know I can do better than I am so I just got to keep on pushing.
5 year plans are good because they allow you to push toward a goal and make an effort to keep yourself sustained in knowing that you'll have some kind of future.
Things change, but right now my future is setting sail.
Why not? You only live once.

1:02pm: Life update
Moved in to an apartment on 1st and Denny. Its real nice, but I've been sick for most of the time I've been there so I can't enjoy it too much yet. Its strange to live alone again... I don't really have anyone to talk to beyond calling people on the phone. I've been calling people a lot and chatting with them. I like living alone, but at the same time I still miss living with Josie. I know I couldn't stay there though, so I had to move. Living in this apartment feels like that time in Bremerton before I left for Seattle where I'm just super lonely all the time. The good thing now is that I have a lot of friends to hang out with all the time. I just ask myself if I'm going to revert back to my old ways. Guess we will have to see in time..

Otherwise, I feel great. My job is awesome and I love coming to it.
Music is going great. I'm picking up the drums a lot better than I ever did before.

Life has no real plan I guess, just gotta keep on pushin'

2:09pm: sooo life update
Josie and I broke up.. I'm moving to downtown if all goes according to plan.
Working full time with the shelter which has been super nice, but a little confusing as I'm still getting use to all the policies. I'll get it though.
Working on new music and just living life. I'm actually paying my bills on time for once in my life.
Life looks pretty good.
I'm not dead and I can still sing so thats good. My vocal chords weren't cut out of my body. Thats nice to think about..

5:26pm: I'd rather be blind...

12:44pm: Lets do this
Saturday, January 3rd

Puma Run (last show)
Degania
Jason Clackley
Poseidon

@ blood barn, Bainbridge Island
7pm Free dollars

2:06pm: 23 now! Here it comes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8:43pm: Well everyone.. it looks like Obama won the election for president and the homosexual community lost the right to marry... so we worked real hard to have a more liberal president and in the back fire gay marriage got overturned. Way to go America your dumb as hell sometimes.

3:05am: These overnight shifts are soo longggg. I mean they are ok and all, but I would much rather work in the day time. I don't really interact with anyone and I mainly just sit around for 8 hours. Plus don't get me started on this Fall back shit. I have to work an extra hour because of it hahaha.
I miss my baby, shes in btown tonight.
I wanna learn how to sail
I wanna finish my two year degree so I can become a teachers assistant part time as well
I wanna run for the office of Mayor of Seattle
I wanna tour more with Like Claws because I do enjoy playing drums a lot
I wanna crank out some serious new jams for my solo stuff and work on new stuff with John when we can.


All will be done.

5:38am: Update on life: Elliot bay closed so we all lost our jobs. It sucks for people that didn't have another job. I feel bad because the owners never gave notice like the mother fuckers they are. I luckily enough was already on my out and have been working at DESC. Way better job. I actually like working haha. Josie and I got sweet ass couch and the house is coming together real nice.
I'm going on a 4 day tour to California in two week. I've been back for a while and it will be nice to get out and play music to new people. The more and more I think about where my music is going I'm thinking about huge instrumentation and just a lot of crap I can't do without selling out haha. I'm going to have to get creative and see if I might be able to do this anyhow. Pick up some people from Cornish or something.

Other than that life is good.

1:26am: Working at the housing project this morning. Its really chill right now because everyone is just sleeping. Some people are watching some old movie in the dining hall and thats about all. Over night shifts are super chill zone. I like the way the shift works too because I go to work at 12 am and get off at 8:30 so I can just climb back in to bed with my girlll. Things are great for me right now. Life makes a little more sense when you get older. Priorities are different, but things start coming together better.
I still love living in Seattle and our new place is just divine. All in all things are good.

9:47am: Lifeeeee
New home has been coming along. We still need a couch instead of an air mattress though. Other than that I look forward to being at my home and living there with Josie.
Got another job working as an on call person at the Downtown Emergency Service Center. I float from site to site and just help where needed. Its a great job because I actually get to go to work to help people! So far I've gone to work two times there and each time I get off feeling really good. I'm working another shift tonight after I get off at Elliot Bay. The Cafe is getting taken over by this master of the food arts. She bought the cafe as a fixer-upper project. The whole "punk" vibe is doomed to die soon, but at least I had a good job here while it lasted.

Valley and The Flex last show on Saturday. The Chapter of my life is now closed.. But the dream never dies..............

7:10pm: